Most of us in our Christian walk have heard of George Mueller at one point. Before today, all I knew is that he was a hero of the faith and that at some point I wanted to study his life with the girls. I came across something about him today and it made me look into his life.
In summary, he started orphanages and cared for many children. The significant thing about him is that he never asked anyone for money or any help. He would ask the Lord for it and God would provide it! He said that the orphan houses existed to display that God could be trusted and to encourage believers to take Him at His word.
Today I’ve sat in the bed all day after an extremely rough day yesterday. I’ve tried to relax and pray that my body will cooperate if I rest all day; something by the way, that I struggle to do-REST. I was on Facebook earlier and seen a rebuttal to an article that a charismatic pastor had written about a recent death in the Christian community and how it is always God’s will to heal. This man refuted that argument and went to the word and encouraged us in the truth. Now before I go any further, I would consider myself charismatic in the sense that I fully believe in the gifts for today. I believe in miracles and I believe in healing. However, I do not believe that God always chooses to heal us-at least not on this earthly pilgrimage. Years ago when Tim and I first began really walking with the Lord, we stepped into what is called the “prosperity gospel” or the “name it and claim it” doctrine. While today is not the day to go into great detail about that, the Lord did begin revealing His truths independently through His word and taught us so much. So because of our journey through that, those headlines tend to catch my eye, hence why I read this article. Long story short in this rebuttal, the man spoke of George Mueller. That’s when I began to read about his great faith in an even greater God.
George was married twice, but in his biography it speaks of one of his wives getting sick with rheumatic fever and she ended up passing away. He said that he read this verse to her before she passed away. “The Lord God is a sun and shield, the Lord will give grace and glory, no good thing will He withhold from them that walk uprightly.” He goes on to say, “I said to myself, with regard to the latter part-no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly- that if it is really good for me, my darling wife will be raised up again, sick as she is. But if she is not restored again,then it would not be a good thing for me. And so my heart was at rest. I was satisfied with God.” SATISFIED with God. Wow, I know that I desire to be satisfied with Him, but my satisfaction isn’t in God a lot of times. To be honest, I would be satisfied to be healed. That’s just the raw truth of it all. BUT, this is where my faith and trust in a loving God comes in.
What this means for me then is that if being healed right now would be good for me, I’d already be healed. He wouldn’t withhold it from me. That’s not who He is. He is our loving Abba Father who if we ask for a fish doesn’t give us a snake or a stone. Psalm 119:68 says “You are good and what you do is good.” Do we believe this? More personally, do I believe this? What we are going through in the body of Christ rests in the hands of a sovereign God. Charles Spurgeon said “The sovereignty of God is the pillow upon which the child of God rests his head at night, giving perfect peace.” If I’m honest,I don’t understand how to “deal” with it in the moment by moment scheme when my body is rebelling and screaming against what I know to be true in my spirit. In the moment, it’s very hard for me to process this, that though it seems good to be released from this ailment and suffering, it’s truly not. And this is where I walk by faith. This is where I can trust God and His word, that He will NEVER withhold good from me because He IS good and He IS love. This is where my mind has to stop and my faith has to lead. Do I say I have this all together? No. In fact I’m talking to myself right now, trying to encourage myself as I encourage you in these very things. Because just like us all in our human nature, we can know one thing and still believe the opposite. This is where I lay down what I think my life should look like. I think it should look pretty comfortable. I should be healthy and be able to homeschool my girls with ease, I should be able to drive them anywhere, I should have only the occasional cold or headache and should I have something more, I should be able to get better. But this isn’t my life. My life is filled with unpredictables. It’s filled with moment by moment needing His help to get through. This is where we all come to a place of laying down our Isaacs on the altar. This is where we come to “not my will be done, but yours Lord.”
In the end, here’s what I sure of. I know that God is love. I know that He loves us. I know that He is in control. I know that He is with us through any amount of suffering. I know we will be with Him for eternity one day. I know that our earthly suffering WILL end, whether now or In His presence for eternity. And I know that it’s all worth it to endure to the end to be with Him.
Let us continue to remember those in the body of Christ who are suffering. Let us continue to lift them up in prayer. And let us continue to encourage one another to keep our eyes fixed on the eternal and not what is seen.