Broken Barbies

As many of you know, I have three sweet daughters. The two younger ones absolutely love Barbie dolls. I guess it’s a timeless classic that never quite goes out of style. I started thinking about them a while ago as I bunny trailed while reading the word. I was reading Psalm 41 about how we are to keep the poor in our sights and that we are to be kind to them. I started to think about how we view not only the poor, but as most relatable to me, the sick and suffering.

When the girls have Barbies that lose a leg or an arm and even sometimes a head, my natural thought process is to throw them away. Why? Because it’s what is ingrained in my mind I guess. Anything that is broken should be thrown away. It’s of no use anymore. I thought about how so many in the body of Christ feel this way. I know personally I have felt It and struggle every single day to feel worth in suffering. It changes everything for you. How are you valuable and have worth as a mom or wife or a friend when you can’t do normal things for your children anymore or your spouse or your friends? How do you have value in the church when you’re no longer involved in ministries as you were before? When you were busy in the church serving God and now you have to be a Mary and serve Him by sitting at His feet, It changes things. When people are honored in the church that are busy doing things and you can’t anymore, it’s hard to not feel rejected and of little value anymore. You see those who are “whole” in the church and it’s hard not to feel in contrast even more broken in comparison.

In the church in general, we have this stigma of it’s good to “have It all together.” While many will profess that no they don’t have It all together, how many of us actually are willing to talk about It or show It. How many of us are willing to be vulnerable? I’d bet that most of us aren’t willing. And I understand It. Vulnerability is, well, vulnerable. It’s scary. You open yourself up to a world of hurt, and no-one likes to be hurt. I asked a sister recently how she was doing, and she actually answered me honestly. She shared how her marriage was needing prayer and let me tell you, It was one of the most refreshing things to hear. I later thanked her for being honest and vulnerable with me so that I could pray for her. I know there’s wisdom there, we don’t want to go around sharing all kinds of personal information with every Tom, Dick and Harry BUT what if we actually began to share that we are struggling. What if, when someone asked us how we are and we know that they genuinely care, what if we tell them how we really are.

It’s not just the sick and suffering, but what about the divorced, the single moms, the depressed, the difficult, the struggling teens etc. How often are they overlooked? I wrote a story years ago about how a potter was forming this beautiful clay vase. It was the most beautiful one he had ever made. He had adorned It with jewels and painted It with the most intricate details and he set It up on the mantle in his home for everyone to see. And one day, the vase fell and It broke. It didn’t shatter completely but there were many broken and jagged pieces. The potter picked It up gently and glued It back together as best as he could. This happened a few times and every time he’d just put It back together. You would think that It would have looked terrible, and to some maybe It did, but to this potter, the breaks and chips and cracks in the vase made It even more unique and even more special. He could have thrown It away, but he didn’t. He chose to pick up the pieces and mend It. There are people in the body of Christ who are the vase who are constantly being broken. Some have viewed them as less important because they aren’t busy in the church doing things. Some have cast them to the side because they’d actually have to invest time and energy into them. Some have even forgotten about them. But God doesn’t. Jesus was a servant. He came to serve the broken. Jesus was the one who truly “had It all together” and yet, He served those who didn’t! His eyes were always on the sick, the suffering, the lost, the widows, the poor, the orphans, the lepers, and the outcast.

We don’t have to pretend like we are all good. We can be honest with one another. We can be vulnerable with one another. Does that mean we’ll never be hurt? Absolutely not, we will be hurt because we’re human. But there’s a beauty in being honest and letting people see you struggle. There’s healing there. I used to have a saying that was taped to my computer, It said “It’s your brokenness that God will use, not your flawlessness. There’s something so unapproachable about people who seem to have never had a struggle.” I keep that in mind often. And I’m not perfect with this. I don’t share honestly all the time. I try myself to seem like I’m ok when i’m not. I have a hard time being vulnerable because I have a very hard time trusting people. So i’m preaching this to myself more than anyone else, but maybe It will minister to some who the Lord wills.

So now, when I see those broken barbies, I’m not as quick to throw them away. They can still be played with. They can still be used. They still have value. And so can we. We still matter. I encourage you to not overlook those who are suffering. And I encourage you to be ok with “not being ok.”

God bless. Until next time….

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Fear of the dark

Nyctophobia: the fear of the dark. Studies show that 90 percent of children experience phobias of the dark. 40 percent of adults experience some level of nyctophobia and at least 10 percent of those adults are too afraid to even get out of bed at night to use the bathroom with the lights out. Why is that? What makes the darkness so scary?

Yeas ago, Tim and I along with our girls visited some dear friends down in Tennessee. There is a place in Sweetwater called “The Lost Sea Adventure.” Deep inside this mountain is a body of water called The Lost Sea. It’s listed by the Guinness Book of World Records as America’s largest underground lake. The caves were used by the Cherokee Indians. You can read more about It on their website “thelostsea.com.” It’s really quite amazing and fascinating to read about. Anyway, when you get inside of this cave it’s a labyrinth to say the least. At one point of the tour they told us that they were going to cut the lights off so that we could experience what the Indians did when they were there. They told us It was a darkness that you had to experience. So with all of the girls standing beside me holding hands, and Tim close to my side we took a deep breath. When they cut those lights off, almost immediately panic set in. It was overwhelming. To say that It was “dark” can’t explain It. I’ve never experienced darkness like that before. It was disorienting. After only a few seconds I had had enough. It was only seconds more before the lights were back on and I felt ok again. Why is that? Why was I so afraid in the dark but not in the light? Being able to see brings a security and comfort. The circumstances hadn’t changed, everything was the same in the dark as It was as soon as they cut the lights back on, but my perception and my view was different. In the dark I had no direction, no footing or no sense of reference.

Questions and irrationality enter in the dark. Our mind wanders and we come up with every plausible reasoning of danger. With a lifelong history of anxiety and panic disorder I have experienced this. Being afraid to look outside at night for fear that someone would be there. Fear to get up at night unless the lights are on. Children do the same thing. They’re afraid strangers will hurt them. They’re afraid a monster will come and get them etc. Rational thinking goes out the window when fear is involved.

Psalm 18:28 says “You light a lamp for me. The Lord, my God, lights up my darkness.” So many people are in the dark, spiritual darkness, not knowing the light of Jesus Christ. 2 Corinthians 4:4 says that Satan, the god of this world, has blinded the minds of unbelievers so that they can’t see the light of the Gospel..” When he keeps the darkness wrapped around us, there is no hope, no direction and only fear. And fear involves torment.

There are so many people in emotional and mental darkness right now. Some have lost wives, mothers, sisters, husbands, children. The anguish and darkness that comes with death can be debilitating, even to extents I have not experienced. How scared they must feel. Some are going through depression which is darkness in your mind. It’s hard to cut through the thickness of depression at times. Some want to escape anyway they can. They use drugs, women, pornography, shopping, tv and some even resort to suicide. When darkness is so encompassing, the only escape to some, they reason, is death, anything to remove the darkness and hopelessness.

David tells us that God lights up his darkness. This is a prayer I have prayed myself and thanked God for. He is the light of the world. He is hope. He is the security that comes from the light in the dark. In heaven, there is no need for the sun because He is the light. God’s word is a lamp for our feet and a light to our path! John 1:5 tells us that the light-Jesus Christ- shines in the darkness, and the darkness has NOT overcome It. God is light and in Him there is no darkness at all. We have been called out of darkness and into the light. Ecclesiastes 2:13 tells us that light is better than darkness.

For those of you today who feel like you’re in the dark, you’re not alone. The darkness is real. What you feel is real. But God is God of the darkness. Pray today and thank God for His light. He will show you what to do, what path to take. He will be with you and give you clarity. He will be the light that will give you comfort and peace when you’re afraid. You can trust Him today.

If and Why

Gideon. What a story of great faith he had. He was human and stumbled in ways just like us, but that’s where I was so encouraged. Gideon felt many of the same emotions that I struggle with. Hebrews tells us about these great men of faith who serve as witnesses for us to look at, testifying that they were human just like us, that they too had problems but their God is our same God who lives today and can do amazing things through His people.

Gideon is one of my absolute favorite encouragements in the word. I find so much similarity and so much faith through his life. One thing the Lord encouraged me with is what I call the “if and why” conundrum. In Judges 6:12 God comes to Gideon and speaks to the future of Gideon- who God sees him as. On a side note, that’s what God does for us and that’s what we must do with our spouse and children. Who we see them to be, who we know they are, regardless of how they feel about themselves. That’s what we speak to them. And we even have to do that with ourselves, if you’re like me, quite often. I see my failures more often than I see how God sees me. But I digress. Another day, another blog.

So God comes and says to Gideon “Mighty hero, the Lord is with you!” To which Gideon replies, “If the Lord is with us, why has all this happened to us…” and there is the question I find myself and others ask. If God ________ then why ______. I thought about some of the questions I have found myself asking in my own heart over the years and some even now. “If God hears me, then why won’t He answer?” “If God can heal me, then why am I still sick?” “If God called me to be a mom, why do I struggle so much?” “If God isn’t going to heal me, then why won’t He send me to the right doctors or let my body receive medication that could help?” And I’m sure some struggle with some of those same questions but some of you, your questions may be more like “If God hears me, why did my loved one die?” If God is good then why am I suffering so much?” Like Gideon, we all ask these questions. Feeling confused and abandoned is as old as the beginning of man. It’s human nature. I used to think that I had to keep a strong face for the Lord and I could never doubt, I could never be honest and show my real emotion because that’s not what He wanted, He wanted faith. But I’ve come to learn that that’s not true at all. God wants our hearts. Broken and messed up as they may be, He just wants our true hearts. We can go to Him with our broken raw emotions and not fear anger or disappointment. He is a loving daddy.

So how does God respond to Gideon’s “if and why” question? One of my favorite scriptures in the whole bible. He says to Gideon “Go with the strength you have…” and in response Gideon questions God by asking how that’s possible, that he can’t defeat the Midianites. His clan is the weakest in the whole tribe of Manasseh and he is the least in the entire family! To which God again responds and says ” I will be with you.” This has become one of my scriptures to draw help from. “Go with the strength you have…I will be with you.”

God doesn’t get angry at Gideon and He in a way, doesn’t even address His question. He answers by telling Gideon that he can go with the strength He has given him today and He would be with him. My own personal questions then turn to “How can I be a mom when I’m so broken?” To which God’s answer is “Go and be a mom today with the strength you have and I will be with you.” “How can I do things day to day when my mind is willing and my body is weak and rebelling against me?” His response is the same “Today go with the strength you have and I will be with you.” The questions for all of us may look different, but the answer is the same. We don’t have to pray and wait and wait for His strength and to feel powerful. We simply go in our own strength that we have knowing that when we are weak, He is with us and will infuse us with His strength. Our strength, little as It may be, can be used to glorify Him. We aren’t doing this on our own.

So today I encourage you, to know brothers and sisters that you are not alone. Your God, the Mighty Living God who created all things with a breath is with you today. He will not leave you or take His eyes off of you. He is an ever present help in trouble today. Know that He has given you strength, live today, with whatever amount of strength you have and know that He will be there to help when you don’t have enough.

Faith Like George Mueller

Most of us in our Christian walk have heard of George Mueller at one point. Before today, all I knew is that he was a hero of the faith and that at some point I wanted to study his life with the girls. I came across something about him today and it made me look into his life.

In summary, he started orphanages and cared for many children. The significant thing about him is that he never asked anyone for money or any help. He would ask the Lord for it and God would provide it! He said that the orphan houses existed to display that God could be trusted and to encourage believers to take Him at His word. 

Today I’ve sat in the bed all day after an extremely rough day yesterday. I’ve tried to relax and pray that my body will cooperate if I rest all day; something by the way, that I struggle to do-REST. I was on Facebook earlier and seen a rebuttal to an article that a charismatic pastor had written about a recent death in the Christian community and how it is always God’s will to heal. This man  refuted that argument and went to the word and encouraged us in the truth. Now before I go any further, I would consider myself charismatic in the sense that I fully believe in the gifts for today. I believe in miracles and I believe in healing. However, I do not believe that God always chooses to heal us-at least not on this earthly pilgrimage. Years ago when Tim and I first began really walking with the Lord, we stepped into what is called the “prosperity gospel” or the “name it and claim it” doctrine. While today is not the day to go into great detail about that, the Lord did begin revealing His truths independently through His word and taught us so much. So because of our journey through that, those headlines tend to catch my eye, hence why I read this article. Long story short in this rebuttal, the man spoke of George Mueller. That’s when I began to read about his great faith in an even greater God. 

George was married twice, but in his biography it speaks of one of his wives getting sick with rheumatic fever and she ended up passing away. He said that he read this verse to her before she passed away. “The Lord God is a sun and shield, the Lord will give grace and glory, no good thing will He withhold from them that walk uprightly.” He goes on to say, “I said to myself, with regard to the latter part-no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly- that if it is really good for me, my darling wife will be raised up again, sick as she is. But if she is not restored again,then it would not be a good thing for me. And so my heart was at rest. I was satisfied with God.”  SATISFIED with God. Wow, I know that I desire to be satisfied with Him, but my satisfaction isn’t in God a lot of times. To be honest, I would be satisfied to be healed. That’s just the raw truth of it all. BUT, this is where my faith and trust in a loving God comes in. 

What this means for me then is that if being healed right now would be good for me, I’d already be healed. He wouldn’t withhold it from me. That’s not who He is. He is our loving Abba Father who if we ask for a fish doesn’t give us a snake or a stone. Psalm 119:68 says “You are good and what you do is good.” Do we believe this? More personally, do I believe this? What we are going through in the body of Christ rests in the hands of a sovereign God. Charles Spurgeon said “The sovereignty of God is the pillow upon which the child of God rests his head at night, giving perfect peace.” If I’m honest,I don’t understand how to “deal” with it in the moment by moment scheme when my body is rebelling and screaming against what I know to be true in my spirit. In the moment, it’s very hard for me to process this, that though it seems good to be released from this ailment and suffering, it’s truly not. And this is where I walk by faith. This is where I can trust God and His word, that He will NEVER withhold good from me because He IS good and He IS love. This is where my mind has to stop and my faith has to lead. Do I say I have this all together? No. In fact I’m talking to myself right now, trying to encourage myself as I encourage you in these very things. Because just like us all in our human nature, we can know one thing and still believe the opposite. This is where I lay down what I think my life should look like. I think it should look pretty comfortable. I should be healthy and be able to homeschool my girls with ease, I should be able to drive them anywhere, I should have only the occasional cold or headache and should I have something more, I should be able to get better. But this isn’t my life.  My life is filled with unpredictables. It’s filled with moment by moment needing His help to get through. This is where we all come to a place of laying down our Isaacs on the altar. This is where we come to “not my will be done, but yours Lord.” 

In the end, here’s what I sure of. I know that God is love. I know that He loves us. I know that He is in control. I know that He is with us through any amount of suffering. I know we will be with Him for eternity one day. I know that our earthly suffering WILL end, whether now or In His presence for eternity. And I know that it’s all worth it to endure to the end to be with Him. 

Let us continue to remember those in the body of Christ who are suffering. Let us continue to lift them up in prayer. And let us continue to encourage one another to keep our eyes fixed on the eternal and not what is seen. 

In Christ, 

Lori

Through the Shower Door

 

1 Corinthians 13:12 “Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely”

In our new house, we have these kinds of doors on our Shower. I believe they are called aquatex glass doors. When you’re in the shower it makes it very difficult to see out and if you’re on the outside, difficult to see in. You can see the general outline or idea of what’s there but there are no details that you can make out.

In the last year, I have prayed fervently for three particular people to be healed physically, and they weren’t healed. They went on home to be with the Lord. One recently, a brother named Nabeel Qureshi went home to be with the Lord. He was a devout Muslim who wanted to know truth, whether it be Allah or Jesus, and the Lord showed Himself to be the only God. He traveled with Ravi Zacharias ministries and shared the gospel in such a way of love and truth that many muslims came to know Jesus as their Savior. A year ago he was diagnosed with stage four stomach cancer and throughout the year of battling it, he never waivered in his faith. He finished his race well. But he left behind a baby daughter and a wife and family that are still Muslim. Over the last few days I have really struggled with this. The few days since his journey home has been riddled with tears and confusion. When you pray so fervently for the body, you become connected to them whether you know them personally or not. We are family in Christ. I have asked the Lord “Wouldn’t he have been more effective to the kingdom to have stayed?” In my mind it makes more sense for not only Nabeel but the others I prayed for to have continued in their earthly ministry to share the gospel, to live a life of love and His fullness, to show the world His love. And though I don’t have cancer, I’ve asked the Lord the same thing about myself in the years of this affliction…”wouldn’t I be more effective to your kingdom Lord if I was well?” “Wouldn’t I be a better mom?” “Couldn’t I witness more and disciple more if I was well Jesus?”  

Though I believe the Lord welcomes our honest questions, I’m looking through the shower asking them. In Isaiah 55:8 God says “My thoughts are not your thoughts, and my ways are not your ways, just as the heavens are higher than the earth so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.” My thoughts are only one sided. I can’t see the other side of the shower door and make out what’s out there, but He can. In suffering and affliction we can easily get stuck on the lack of understanding and confusion of “why won’t you heal me God!”, but I encourage you today to understand that we can’t see it all. We see life through this veil right now and one day, when we see Him face to face that veil will be removed and we will see Him for who He is and we will have understanding of His complete all encompassing love! And in the shadow of His love, in His very presence, I doubt that we will even consider asking Him why He did or didn’t do this or that. We have an eternal hope that far outweighs our present suffering. We have the hope, the surety of eternity with the One who loves us more than we could ever possibly grasp. This comes down to -do we trust Him? Do we trust Him with our life and our death? And CAN we trust Him?

The answer is a resounding yes! The very one who gave us life, has the ability to care for it. He never slumbers or sleeps. He says His thoughts toward us are more than the sand on the shore. He says that even if it were possible for a mother to forget her baby at her breast nursing, He couldn’t forget us. He says our names are engraved on the palm of his hand! He says that the day we go home to be with Him is precious in His sight. This God who so loves us and is faithful to us even when we aren’t, can be trusted with our life. Though we don’t understand what He does what He does or Why He does what He does, we can trust that He is good and He loves us. We believe this by faith because He has shown Himself more than worthy of our trust. Let us pray that as we walk this earthly journey that we keep our eyes so steadfastly fixed on Jesus that no amount of suffering would turn our eyes away from our only Love. Let us remember that one day, the shower door will be opened, and we will see our King, our Love and our Savior. Let this truth encourage your hearts today. 

-Lori

How can we help?

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I’ve gotten the nudge from the Lord quite a bit to write a particular post, but I’ve been praying about it some time to see when to do it. I felt the go ahead today as I was praying and ironically studying something that had nothing to do with that! 

As you know the purpose of this blog is to encourage, equip and comfort those who are suffering but also the body of Christ. One thing I’ve felt to write about is to the body, how to help those who are suffering. Many in the church just honestly don’t know how to help or what to do. It’s one thing to have someone who has had a baby and needs some meals, that’s easy; or someone who is sick and or has come out of the hospital, that’s also easy. But what about those who are chronically suffering and need help more than once, sometimes quite often. How do you help those? Here are 5 ways you can help!

First: Don’t look the other way!

Listen, I get it. Suffering in any form is messy. Whether it be through chronic illness-mental and physical, or the aftermath of a death etc. It’s much easier to look the other way and let “someone else deal with it.” Some might even think-the elders of the church can handle that. Let me encourage you, it’s ALL of our job to help. Galatians 6:2 says Bear one another’s burdens and so fulfill the law of Christ. What does that mean? Simply put, Jesus told us to love the Lord our God and to love one another and that sums up the whole law. What does love mean here? It means not walking away. It means helping when you see a need if it’s in your power to do so. the word BURDEN here is Greek means “to support, as a burden; to put upon one’s self (something) to be carried” It’s the idea of you getting in there, rolling up your sleeves and holding up that heavy thing with that person.  Think about it. Jesus said in John 13:35 that the whole world would know we are His if we love one another. It’s a testimony to the world of the love of Christ. That’s what we are. We are a representation of Christ to the world. What better way to show the world who He is and what He has done for them than to display it by loving one another. Commit to walk through this with them. SEE them and be there for them. 

Second: Don’t ask how they are unless you’re willing to bear that burden

Here’s the thing, we are all guilty of this. Myself included. I flippantly walk through the halls at church and say “how are you?” But to be transparent, I say it more often that not to be kind than actually meaning it. What happens usually when you ask that question to someone and they start to spill it? We get annoyed! We’re thinking “ugh, I know I asked but I didn’t really mean it!” Here’s one thing the Lord showed me. If we don’t care enough to truly mean it, and we aren’t prepared and willing to carry whatever burden they are struggling with, then just don’t ask. People want to know you care enough to ask and really mean it. Check on them and be there for them!

Third: Pray for them!

This is the most important one out of them all thus far. Pray pray pray for them. As someone who chronically suffers, you have no idea how much we need prayer. There is so much that goes into literally just living each day. In my life, there’s the constant physical effects, which makes it difficult if not impossible sometimes to do anything. Then that leads into the mental effects. The doubt, the hopelessness, the despair. That leads into the emotional effects, depression etc. Then there’s the guilt of  not being what I want and the disappointment that comes with that. I want so badly to be the mom that can take my girls places, have special dates with them, take them to normal functions, church even without having to rely on my husband. There’s the exhaustion of just being sick every single day with no relief. There’s SO much we need prayer for. Hebrews 13:3 says “Continue to remember those in prison as if you were together with them in prison, and those who are mistreated as if you yourselves were suffering.” We are to remember those who are suffering as if you were going through it. If you were the one suffering, what would it mean to you for people to pray as fervently, passionately and steadfastly as if it were themselves in the very affliction you are in? It means a whole lot. Pray for those who are suffering. I can’t say it enough. And then, sometimes, let them know that you’re praying for them. You have no idea how much it means to me for someone to come up to me and tell me they’ve been praying for me. Suffering can be very lonely. It’s a very nice and comforting thing to know we are loved. 

Fourth:Encourage them!

Never doubt the power of encouraging words. 1 Thessalonians 5:11 says “Therefore encourage one another and build each other up.” Proverbs 16:24 says that Kind words are like honey-sweet to the soul and healthy for the body.” Offer kind words to those who are suffering. Pray and ask the Lord to give you a word for them. Encourage them with what the Lord has encouraged you with if you’ve gone through suffering also. That’s why we go through things, to comfort others with the same comfort we have received from Christ. I had a dear sweet sister who wrote me an “open when” card for when I was discouraged or in despair. She wrote a hilarious joke inside and encouraging words for when I was feeling hopeless. I can’t tell you how much that meant when I opened it one day. If you see something online that encouraged you that day, send it to them! It will mean more than you realize. 

Fifth: Help in practical ways!

James 2:19 says “If one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about their physical needs, what good is it?”  and 1 John 3:17 says “If anyone with earthly possessions sees his brother in need, but withholds his compassion from him, how can the love of God abide in him?” If you see a brother or sister who is suffering and you have the means to help them, and you don’t, what good is it? That’s what the world does. If there is a sister or brother who has a need and you are able to help, then help. Serve in practical ways. Bring meals if it’s difficult for them to do that or even just to bless them. Sometimes the last thing a family needs who is suffering is to worry about dinner. Help them clean their home. If they have kids, take their kids to the park. If they homeschool, help them any way with any classes. There are many many ways you can help. And of course PRAY. There are many ways, that if you’re willing to be used, the Lord will show you how to help them. 

 

These are 5 small ways that you can help. There are practical ways for all of us in the body of Christ to help those who are suffering. We are a family in the Lord. Let us not forget that. If it was your mom or your sister suffering, would you be there? Of course! Let us show that same affection to our brothers and sisters in the Lord. Let’s show the world the reality of Christ by our love. 

Until next time. God bless you all! 

 

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Intro

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This has been on my heart for some time. I’ve felt the nudge from the Lord repeatedly, but shrunk back in fear like I tend to do when I’m called into the unknown. I’m in a season of suffering and I know the Lord wants to use it. But I, like so many, feel my “loaves and fishes” just won’t be enough to feed many. Yet, the Lord still calls me and continues to give me the desire. I am in a season of chronic illness. I have Dysautonomia. It’s a fancy word for feeling sick so much. My autonomic nervous system is damaged and it affects every part of me. I’m sick all the time in one form or another. It causes many symptoms in my body such as overwhelming fatigue (not your normal run of the mill tiredness-more like you’ve run a marathon carrying an elephant), dizziness and vertigo; my dizziness is almost always constant at varying degrees, nausea frequently, pain-I also have peripheral neuropathy along with the Dysautonomia, anxiety and panic, sound intolerance, heat intolerance, near syncope (passing out), light-headedness almost always, migraines, I can’t stand for long, I can’t do anything for long-cleaning, cooking, walking, depression, tinnitus and much more. My days are difficult to say the least. I will share more on that in a later blog.

But for now I want to use my loaves and fishes of encouragement, help, tips, love, and understanding to meet as many emotional needs in the body of Christ that I can. And I’m going to trust the Lord to multiply it. I want to strengthen my brothers that their strength may not fail. Suffering has taught me compassion for others hurting, whether suffering mental, physical, emotional pain. I truly believe that the world will know who Jesus is by our love for one another in the body of Christ. Human nature is selfishness and greed and inward focus, but when we in the body of Christ see each other hurting and bear their burdens with them, it shows Jesus’ compassion and love. My next posts will be longer and more subject focused, but for tonight, I’ve gotten my feet wet. There is more to come and I pray you will be encouraged as you read. God bless you my family.